My personal point of view, I won't rate outer beauty less important and inner beauty more important. I believe ppl see things as a whole, as a package. I dun believe ppl can totally neglect the outer look at all and only focus on others personality. But there're some ppl who are really shallow. They only focus on the things that they can see on surface. They dun even give other ppl chance, or give themselve a chance to know ppl better. But some ppl truely are, they can accept a person who really not that attracting in outlook. I believe everyone has this kinda experience b4.
I got requirements. I want someone taller than me. I want him at least to be decent look. I want a rich guy. But when she meet someone, who's not that tall (same height wif her), someone who's not that handsome, fat, lame, someone who's not loaded, not frm wealthy family, but he's someone who knows what he wants in his life. She accepted him, and love him. But sometimes she also wonder "I never thought he could be my life partner. I never thought I can fall on him. I never thought he can be so much diff from what i thought". So my conclusion. When u fall in love with someone, u wiil tend to see an imperfect person in a perfect way.
- 幸福并不是必然，当你曾经拥有它，却骤然失去，比从来没有得到过更痛苦
- 最穷的人并不是他口袋没钱，而是他身边没有一个爱他的人
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Thursday, July 17, 2008
A letter to Michelle
Halo, yeah I wasn't sure when u will see this email. Well I'm not trying to nag or whining or what. But just sharing you my thought after yday incident.
I can still remember the 1st time I met u in Alor Gajah. The 1st time u came to S'pore. To be frank, u looks utterly attractive to me. When I saw u in the pics u sent me, batches by batches, I already got attracted by you, your smile. And when I see u, the feeling was stronger. But I was clear about my intention. I never thought we could be together. And that was simple.
When I was in KL with the meyoucity buddies, I didn't wanna see u coming with Brandon. Coz I dun want to affect your r/ship with Brandon. But when I saw you, I wasn't willing to be part with you. I wanted to see u more. Then, I can still remember, the effort we made just to see each other for 45 min, of coz I was disappointed with Pei Yu around. Hahaha..
And I can still remember, when we was "fighting" for the sofa seat. I can still remember, how eager I wanted to see u for dinner and clubbing. I can still remember, why u "lao kai" when u know I was in KL without informing u 1st but the rest. And of coz not to forget to mentioned, I can still remember, the email I received from you, and the nite when u won the 2 litres Chivas.
Everything happened just like yday. I can still remember everything happened within these few years. Our laughter, our smiles, our jokes, our fun, our cries, our friends, everyone that we met, by-passers around us. So real, so near, yet so far. Our life was never been simple, yeah.. simple never belongs to us. Complicated was wat we got. We always complicated stuff. Everything. We tends to complicated 'em. A simple thought, simple incident, we tends to complicated 'em. I could just told u about my ex, but I complicated it. I could just apologized for my wrong doing. But I complicated it. I could just told you "hey, I'm oledi in KL. I wanna see u", but I complicated it, coz I wanna see your respond, I wanna feel your passion. So I never said it out. Same thing, you could just trust me, my colleagues (wei leng), grace etc, that they got nothing to do with me. But you complicated it. You could just tell me the reason why u go US (although I already knew it), but you complicated it. You could just tell me that u no longer loved me and u falled for the guy in JB, but u complicated it. As a conclusion, both of us are ppl who tends to complicate stuff. Simple, is what we should looking forward.
The incident happened yday was simple, as simple as clear crystal. But, again, we complicated it. U thought I was taking u advantage of your leniency, I thought u were insulting me. We never learn from our past mistakes. But Michelle, I slowly learnt, that we should see things as simple as we could. I slowly learnt, that we should see things from other aspects. I slowly learnt, to accept the truth, that I will never change you (hahaha.. okay this is a joke), I slowly learnt, to solve a problem by see things from my opponents shoes. That's why, I forgive. That's why, I understand. That's why, I always have explaination for both sides, plus and minus. And trust me, I'm longing for simple life. Coz I'm tired to be a complicated person. I dun mind to have a plain water life. I dun mind to have a stable life. But the fate always fooling us. When I dun feel like stabling my life, they will offer me a stable life. When I feel like having a stable life, they will offer me other wise. I never expect the world / environment to change for me, I will change myself to suit the world / environment. Since I can't get the thing I want in my life, I'm considering to change myself, change my environment, change my life. There was a moment, the moment when I was sick, the moment before I start talking to you, I was really lost. I didn't know the purpose of me living in this world. I didn't know, how to make my next step, carry on my life. U might asked me, what happened that made me thought of this way? Well, I couldn't give u an answer. I can only say. I was sick of my life. Looking back at my tragedic life before. My life was totally mess up. I already screwed up my first half of my life, I will not mess it up for the 2nd half of my life. The crayon is in my hand, and I'm the master of myself. I decide the color to pain my life. So, I'm planning on the thing I wanted to do long ago. Something that I had mentioned but I didn't have the courage to do it.
Sorry, a bit out topic. What I wanted to say is. I feel comfortable to talk to you. And I feel comfortable to keep our friendship. To be frank, I feel glad to start talking to you. And I know my request is a bit luxurious to ask, which is to revert back our r/ship to where we had before I came back to KL. U were once my soul mate, my best buddy, and I hope u always are. I will not allowed anything to screw up our friendship. And I know, u should be having a very happy life like u never had before. Trust me I really happy for u. Althought I might not agree with your every thought, your actions, coz u're too complicated. Hahahaha.. But, you dun have to seek for my understanding, coz maybe I'm just no one for you. But for my part, I hope u will understand. And I hope, that u will never get affected by our past. Like I spoke to you yday, comparing to your other friends, I think I'm still better than them. But I got the worst treatment. That's why I felt hurt, bleeding. And I think I might already out from your circle. But i know, as I said before, I learnt to see things from your heart. So I will try to understand.. People say break up couple can never be friends. I hope I can shut their mouth. I'm not asking for your forgiveness. But, I won't insist on something that never belongs to me. Like you said, I'm an ego prick. Hahahaha.. My ego dropped, but still, there're some leftover with me. LOL.. But I know, u're also a forgiveful person. I know u never keep that incident in your heart anymore when I received your sms last nite. Dun worry Michelle, enjoy your trip ok? I hope u will always happy. I hope you will be always protected, by your friends, your family, and your love one. Take care!
Best rgds,
Trey
I can still remember the 1st time I met u in Alor Gajah. The 1st time u came to S'pore. To be frank, u looks utterly attractive to me. When I saw u in the pics u sent me, batches by batches, I already got attracted by you, your smile. And when I see u, the feeling was stronger. But I was clear about my intention. I never thought we could be together. And that was simple.
When I was in KL with the meyoucity buddies, I didn't wanna see u coming with Brandon. Coz I dun want to affect your r/ship with Brandon. But when I saw you, I wasn't willing to be part with you. I wanted to see u more. Then, I can still remember, the effort we made just to see each other for 45 min, of coz I was disappointed with Pei Yu around. Hahaha..
And I can still remember, when we was "fighting" for the sofa seat. I can still remember, how eager I wanted to see u for dinner and clubbing. I can still remember, why u "lao kai" when u know I was in KL without informing u 1st but the rest. And of coz not to forget to mentioned, I can still remember, the email I received from you, and the nite when u won the 2 litres Chivas.
Everything happened just like yday. I can still remember everything happened within these few years. Our laughter, our smiles, our jokes, our fun, our cries, our friends, everyone that we met, by-passers around us. So real, so near, yet so far. Our life was never been simple, yeah.. simple never belongs to us. Complicated was wat we got. We always complicated stuff. Everything. We tends to complicated 'em. A simple thought, simple incident, we tends to complicated 'em. I could just told u about my ex, but I complicated it. I could just apologized for my wrong doing. But I complicated it. I could just told you "hey, I'm oledi in KL. I wanna see u", but I complicated it, coz I wanna see your respond, I wanna feel your passion. So I never said it out. Same thing, you could just trust me, my colleagues (wei leng), grace etc, that they got nothing to do with me. But you complicated it. You could just tell me the reason why u go US (although I already knew it), but you complicated it. You could just tell me that u no longer loved me and u falled for the guy in JB, but u complicated it. As a conclusion, both of us are ppl who tends to complicate stuff. Simple, is what we should looking forward.
The incident happened yday was simple, as simple as clear crystal. But, again, we complicated it. U thought I was taking u advantage of your leniency, I thought u were insulting me. We never learn from our past mistakes. But Michelle, I slowly learnt, that we should see things as simple as we could. I slowly learnt, that we should see things from other aspects. I slowly learnt, to accept the truth, that I will never change you (hahaha.. okay this is a joke), I slowly learnt, to solve a problem by see things from my opponents shoes. That's why, I forgive. That's why, I understand. That's why, I always have explaination for both sides, plus and minus. And trust me, I'm longing for simple life. Coz I'm tired to be a complicated person. I dun mind to have a plain water life. I dun mind to have a stable life. But the fate always fooling us. When I dun feel like stabling my life, they will offer me a stable life. When I feel like having a stable life, they will offer me other wise. I never expect the world / environment to change for me, I will change myself to suit the world / environment. Since I can't get the thing I want in my life, I'm considering to change myself, change my environment, change my life. There was a moment, the moment when I was sick, the moment before I start talking to you, I was really lost. I didn't know the purpose of me living in this world. I didn't know, how to make my next step, carry on my life. U might asked me, what happened that made me thought of this way? Well, I couldn't give u an answer. I can only say. I was sick of my life. Looking back at my tragedic life before. My life was totally mess up. I already screwed up my first half of my life, I will not mess it up for the 2nd half of my life. The crayon is in my hand, and I'm the master of myself. I decide the color to pain my life. So, I'm planning on the thing I wanted to do long ago. Something that I had mentioned but I didn't have the courage to do it.
Sorry, a bit out topic. What I wanted to say is. I feel comfortable to talk to you. And I feel comfortable to keep our friendship. To be frank, I feel glad to start talking to you. And I know my request is a bit luxurious to ask, which is to revert back our r/ship to where we had before I came back to KL. U were once my soul mate, my best buddy, and I hope u always are. I will not allowed anything to screw up our friendship. And I know, u should be having a very happy life like u never had before. Trust me I really happy for u. Althought I might not agree with your every thought, your actions, coz u're too complicated. Hahahaha.. But, you dun have to seek for my understanding, coz maybe I'm just no one for you. But for my part, I hope u will understand. And I hope, that u will never get affected by our past. Like I spoke to you yday, comparing to your other friends, I think I'm still better than them. But I got the worst treatment. That's why I felt hurt, bleeding. And I think I might already out from your circle. But i know, as I said before, I learnt to see things from your heart. So I will try to understand.. People say break up couple can never be friends. I hope I can shut their mouth. I'm not asking for your forgiveness. But, I won't insist on something that never belongs to me. Like you said, I'm an ego prick. Hahahaha.. My ego dropped, but still, there're some leftover with me. LOL.. But I know, u're also a forgiveful person. I know u never keep that incident in your heart anymore when I received your sms last nite. Dun worry Michelle, enjoy your trip ok? I hope u will always happy. I hope you will be always protected, by your friends, your family, and your love one. Take care!
Best rgds,
Trey
Monday, July 7, 2008
孤身只影
好久没留下几句了, 难道只有在不开心的时候才会回来吗? 刚刚看了一个朋友的部落格, 心血来潮便回来看看. 反正也没人懂我这个部落格的存在, 所以也不像一些扮有智慧的人在网上打发伟论, 这里就好像是我的牢骚桶, 有一大堆的牢骚和不快就在这里吐, 不吐不快嘛!
最近感觉到好像很弱, 不想面对工作上的人. 为什么会这样呢? 只从我生病以来, 我好像感觉到特别孤单, 没有人在我身旁, 失去了支柱, 没有人让我感觉到自己的生存价值, 为什么会这样? 以为和阿慧在一起后情形会改善，但还是逃不过分手的下场。可悲的是我不会为了她伤心，反而令我更思念她？OMG~ 阿霞一定会杀了我，还有 Joanne, Fiona, 我爸，妈等。。 对，她不是个好女孩，我也不是个好男人，我感觉到我俩好像命中注定似的。看了 Will Smith 的 Hancock，对命中注定，天生一对有另一个看法，原来命中注定，天生一对的恋人不一定可以在一起，反而分开对彼此更是件好事，起码各有各发展，各自开发新天地。事实上证明，我俩不是没试过，分开九个月后还可以在一起，但，结果又是如何？接受事实吧！
但，我可愿意付出任何代价，回去从前的我，现实生活中有个爱我的女人，网络有个可以谈心的红颜知己，人生如此，死而无憾。。
最近感觉到好像很弱, 不想面对工作上的人. 为什么会这样呢? 只从我生病以来, 我好像感觉到特别孤单, 没有人在我身旁, 失去了支柱, 没有人让我感觉到自己的生存价值, 为什么会这样? 以为和阿慧在一起后情形会改善，但还是逃不过分手的下场。可悲的是我不会为了她伤心，反而令我更思念她？OMG~ 阿霞一定会杀了我，还有 Joanne, Fiona, 我爸，妈等。。 对，她不是个好女孩，我也不是个好男人，我感觉到我俩好像命中注定似的。看了 Will Smith 的 Hancock，对命中注定，天生一对有另一个看法，原来命中注定，天生一对的恋人不一定可以在一起，反而分开对彼此更是件好事，起码各有各发展，各自开发新天地。事实上证明，我俩不是没试过，分开九个月后还可以在一起，但，结果又是如何？接受事实吧！
但，我可愿意付出任何代价，回去从前的我，现实生活中有个爱我的女人，网络有个可以谈心的红颜知己，人生如此，死而无憾。。
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