Confront

Hi,

I had been wanted to do this long ago but nothing motivated me to. Today I decided to do this coz I dun wanna be the 'runner' of this whole joke anymore. Before I can really move on to my life, I want to clarify something, in front of all of us.

When was the last time that 3 of us gather together? It has been quite some times ago. My memory of 3 of us has becoming very blurr now. But I can still remember. 3 of us were very good friends! We always hangout together no matter where we go. We yam char, hangout at michelle's place, we sing in the car (I can still remember the Jay's song, with Ruby also) and etc. It was the most wonderful time that I ever had in my life. Those are precious and always kept in my mind. But, look at us today. What gones wrong with us? 3 of us not talking to each other. 3 of us hate each other. It really puzzled me. It was a simple thing. Do we have to complicated it into such a way?

I remember michelle went to SG on that weekend. I was suppose to travel to Penang for work. That was the reason why I cannot join michelle to SG. I booked the limo to pick me up at office area (USJ). Reason being is I gotta away for 3 days and office is the safest place for me to put my car. I got access to my office and can sleep inside there with the air con and internet access. I met carmen for yam char around 11pm. We yam char at the malay food shop outside her place. When she knew I had planned to overnite in office, as the curtosy she invited me to overnite at her place. I didn't want to coz it wasn't that convenient as she's a gal and i'm guy. But she insisted so I followed her back in the end. When I reached her place and opened her room, I found that she got only 1 queen size bed. Again I wanted to leave or sleep on the floor but she insisted that I can sleep beside her. I didn't want it but she said "u scared I rape u meh?". Since she's a gal and she also dun mind, why should I? But I believe all this are for good intention. I trust u really caring me as your friend carmen, thanks for that. We didn't chat much coz it was quite late oledi, and I gotta wake up like 5am to meet the limo driver and catch the flight. Oh ya, she changed behind me and asked me to turn my faced over not to peek at her. I did kacao her but my body stay still and never turn over of coz. That nite I sleep soundly. Nothing happened. And of coz.. we never had any sexual intercourse or ONS watever u called like what Alan said. We never even had body contact. So I dunno why there's a rumour going on between me and her. When michelle came back from SG, I told her frankly everything about this. I think this is exactly what I told u when u came back, rite michelle? i told u becoz I trust u won't spread it out and I dun want any misunderstand later. But.. who knows there's still something shitty like this after few yrs. So carmen, is that correct about that nite? Did i missed anything? Please enlighten me if I did.

Carmen, I know how u think. Ur thinking is, if someone is ur fren, he/she should trust u and never even doubt on u. He/she shouldn't even ask u about this coz it will be like insulting u in a way. Seriously I also think like that. That's why i never bother to explain this earlier. But now i realised we shouldn't run away from this. We should stand up and face the truth. Come on we never did anything wrong, why should we run? Sometimes hide away is not the best option. It would cause a lot of misunderstanding. We're already adult. So we shouldn't just run away and face it, shall we?

2 weeks back I got another call from michelle when I was on the way to Taiping. She was saying she know "everything" about us. She knew "something we're doing behind" her. Can I know what's the "everything" and "something"? Eversince Carmen went to HK, i had been lost contact with her for like.. dunno how long.. i also lost count. In fact we seldom keep in touch. The only reason we contact a lot last time also becoz of the rumours, and the hoohaa when we break up michelle. After that we sort of like lost contact again. And carmen, I remember i didn't talk much to u about michelle. The only time we mentioned about her was when u asked me "how's thing with michelle?", "really sad to see u both like this", something like that. And if i remember correctly i diverted the topic, right carmen? That was the only time we mentioned about michelle in our conversation. So when i see u again in msn, I msged u, but again u seems sensitive and ran away with your old favorite 'blocking' style. LOL~ C'mon, I never scold u also, i just asked u what did u tell michelle until she mad again? It was just a simple question rite? Why u so sensitive leh? Things can be very simple, why wanna make it complicated? I dun get it gals... seriously... And.. where does this rumours come from again?

About Alan, seriously, i dun trust him at all. Please hear my logic inference. Michelle, u're a gal also. If u had ONS (if only) wif a guy among the group of friends, or even a random guy, will u go and spread it around? Or ask any of your gal friend, will she do that? Not that she's hooking up with celebrity like Brad Pitt, then we can understand why she wanna spread it around, coz she's screwing a celebrity and she feel proud of it. But, hey, come on~ I'm not celebrity, i'm not handsome, not loaded, not tall, not special. Is it proud to have sex intercourse with me? Think about that. Secondly, Alan said Carmen seduced him by touching him. And he's the 'saint' coz he pushed her away. Another guy friend of Alan and michelle also got such experience. Can't really remember exactly. I did mentioned this to Tim last time. And he said "why carmen never did that to me?". Obviously, only Alan and his friend is the 'victim' here. Is he thinking highly so much of himself? Or is Tim too normal for Carmen to seduce? Even when both me and Carmen together, we treat each other very politely. We never had body contact. Carmen, dun get me wrong for what i'm saying above, I'm just analysing. Michelle, u can be fair to both party? Before this rumours break out, Carmen and I also your friend, in fact u meet us more than u meet alan they all, unless u met them without my knowledge lah. So.. how could u just listened blindly to them and accused both of us, both of us who loved u so much? Does he shows any prove? Seriously I dun mind to confront them. I got nothing to fear. What if, i'm saying if.. all these are the lies? Michelle, the hatred that u kept, does it worth? What if all these are only misunderstand? All the crazy moment we had gone thru, does it worth? Think about it..

Since we oledi start thinking, think again. Why all these while i never even once admit it? Michelle if i want to retal, I think the word "yes, i did bed with her" will hurt u whole lot last time. That will be the heaviest punch. But I could wrong. But, all this while i was trying to explain. Coz I dun wanna eat dead cat. Last time NO, this time NO, and never in my future. Who ever lies, go to hell, how bout that?

Ok, i'm relief now. I wanna confront everybody just to clear the old shit. I hope this email doesn't sound rude to any of u. And I always remember how great the moment we had last time when 3 of us hangout. That was the simplest, purest and happier moment. Things will not restored back to old time. But at least thing will not as bad as now. Wish both of u doing great in the future.


Trey